Stress it does a body good??? 296

Let me first start off by printing a retraction from my post 2 days ago... I in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM weigh 306 anymore. I spent soo much time of my life in three-hundy land, that i guess it has taken some getting used to

All that being said. I am writng this to you from our dinner table IN JEANS!!! did you hear that? JEANS! these jeans and I havent always seen thigh to thigh. they used to cut me in half (much like in art class when you use that wire tool to cut through huge chunks clay) However now I am sitting here comfortably being able to take a full breath, and happy with the fact that I didnt have to lay down and zip them up with pliers. Dayna and I ate dinner at my Fav. resturant THE BLUE ONION BABY. Its a wonderful place with plenty of many healty choices. Its my soul food. its nice to be able indulge with out un-doing your day! if you go there try the hummus. but instead of the flat bread (which is wonderful but OH so fattning) get it with romain lettuce and make wraps with cucumbers, red peppers, and Green onions. so tasty and so healty!
Every day it gets easier to make wise choices. You know what they say. If you always do what you did, you will always get what you got!

thanks for reading!

be well

adam

Does this spare tire make me look fat? 306

Well howdy out there on the information super high way! Yesterday after noon when I woke up there it was... MY BELLY!!! Yesterday was the first day in a month that I felt FAT! I know I sound like a girl but I cant help it. yes i am so proud of the fact that I no longer have to hold my breath to put on my shoes!!! GO ME! however as the night went on I felt like My belly (which I have ever so loving named Joshua) had taken over and was sucking the life out of me. You know those novelty toys that you by from Walgreens, the aligators that you put in water and they grow 300 times their origional size... that was Joshua! It must have happend in the shower. DAMN! In the past that would have thrown me over the edge of a boat wearing cement boot, into a delightfully smooth and creamy river of chocolate (wow I just turned my self on, is it hot in here?) but I know that I cant depend on how i "feel" anymore! and the truth behind the matter is I am doing great! and I am down over 30 lbs. Nothing is going going to stop me now. I feel Great, And there is nowhere but up from here!

BE WELL

I would just like give a shout out to my friend Jennifer Hartman... We Got this Gurl

**here is the back story on how my belly got deemed Joshua. I have a cousin who shares said name... he is the biggest pain in the butt ever. He is constantly tapping you repeating your name until you finally turn around and scream WHAT??? with that he wants you to watch him play! If you dont give him his way he throws a fit! Much like my belly who if you dont give him what he wants he will throw a fit.

again thank you all for reading...

Emotions... they're not just for eating anymore

today may just have been the most discouraging day... Dayna and I spent 50 dollars and 4 hours in the kitchen making sample cakes for a "client", only to get a text to telling us that they didn't want the cake because they didn't have the money for it. THEN i got drama from a potential male friend, who turned out to be a little girl. After all of that i was extremely ready to go on an eating spree. a few hours later we decided to order out our dinner, Chili's!! mmmmmm chicken crispers. i bet you thought i ate them didn't you? Its OK if you do. If I reading this, I would probably be thinking the same thing. BUT YOU WOULD WRONG BABY! I ate the healthy chicken plate with black beans and steamed broccoli! Now I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that I was so completely satisfied. Because I needed comfort. but i was comforted in the fact that I could get through an extremely frustrating day with out losing my cool and eating anything that isn't nailed down. our little baby is growing up. plus i borrowed pain from the future, and thought what is that going to get me besides hating my self and having to lay down to button up my jeans.

Which came first the Vomit or the Gag?

Hello all! salutations to one and all! I know its been two days since my last confession. last night was filled with drama and aggression, with some one who shall remail name-less (starts with a D and ends with a ayna) but she is my soul mate and we made up! so back on to the topic at hand. I would like to ask you all a question. when and if is ok to give yourself a cheat day? well for me it has been a month and half. and tonight we went to Olive Garden. I partook in an a part of an appetizer a bowl of soup and a lasagna style dish. It felt good to have sort of a cheat dinner and I did walk out feeling a little more stuffed than I would have liked to have been. On the way home the guilt started to set in, I then stopped and thought to myself how realistic is it to think that i am never going to enjoy a hearty Calorie Laden (soul satisfying) meal again... I THINK NOT! So I quickly regrouped and said you know that was Delicious and it was fun, but that cant be the way I eat all the time. (to think that was the way I used to eat on a daily basis). so after a much lusted after and needed Cig. Dayna and I arrived home and put our new game in our we (Just Dance 1&2) and after six or seven songs, Dayna and I went out for some fresh air. Just then it happened... I did a very impressive Technicolor Yawn! After much contemplation I decided it was NOT a good idea to Eat a Heavy meal and then come home and shake what my Momma gave me, because all that gave me was a tummy ache and a horrible taste in my mouth!

Good times

thank you for reading.

Remember its OK to reward your self every now and then!

The longest year of my life Weight 299

I would like to take this oppertunity to welcome me back to blogging... I has been the Longest year of my life. I struggled with my addiction so much this year. With the illness and the death of my Father. May I just say that cancer is the most disgusting, hateful, and horrible disease I have ever witnessed. After our loss I decided to, like I have so many times before, medicate my self with food and almost ballooned up to my origional weight of 363. well for once in my life I stopped myself dead in my tracks and choose to take the road less traveled. and here I am. I broke the 3 hundeys, never to return. I have lost a total of 28 lbs in 4 weeks. now that I am on the right track I will be posting on a daily basis... we at least I will try. LETS do this

BTW I am fitting back into my purple scrubs, So long big green ones!

who"d thunk quitting smoking would be so much fun!

Wow i think i was speaking chinese! 305 lbs

So I set up the feature where I could blog from my phone via text messages. Well as you can tell by my previous post it didn't work and something was getting lost in translation... like the words.

It has been about a week since I have posted anything so a tiny update is in order. Monday was an extremely stressful day and I reverted back to the bad habit of eating to medicate. Where it normally made me slip into a food coma and drift off to a land where unicorns fart rainbows. This time it had a slightly different effect, more like Wow potato chips :abdominal cramping and loose stools. I did however make a quick recovery and was back on track, and I haven't looked back. (except right now, but that was only to update... i swear)

I have started working out every day in any way that I can. One day I did sweat'n to the oldies (that was a GAY ole time). I have also started walking! so things are going really well. I start work Monday and cant wait to have a job so i can join a gym

OH OH OH AND I quit smoking yesterday! With that I have managed to not kill everyone and eat everything!

huh, maybe I am stronger than i though!

Thanks for reading!

Be well

Adam

http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/kims-midnight-brownies-recipe

The link if for an awesome brownie reciep. dont be afriad that it has black beans in them. they only have 126 calories in a piece. If you leave off the icing which i do and so can you eliminate even more and make a brownie for under 100 cal.

I like them so much I was thinking about changing my blog name to the Fat kid and the Black Bean Brownie!